There's this part of me,

that's finally accepting,

that I have to grow up...

I can't go out and party any more...

I have to start looking at colleges,

and thinking about my

"future"

But -- 

truth be told.

I don't want to think about the future.

I just want to live,

love,

be.

In this,
Moment. 

I want to live.

Dear god I just want to live,

and finally not be alone,

and love to the extent that I never have,

and show the world that

true passion,

just pure passion for life

it really exists.

But instead,

I'll fil out my applications,

and fake a smile,

at the perfect acceptance letter....