Is today gonna be the day you contact me? Is today gonna be the day my phone suddenly vibrates and your name flashes on the screen? Is today gonna be the day I refresh my mailbox and a mail from you will be there? Is today gonna be the day you appear “online” on my contact list and a bleep goes out as you message me? Is today gonna be the day you’re leaving a voicemail on my phone?

This is what I wonder every day.

And I have been wondering for weeks now.

But that day never comes.

I just want to say that if today IS the day, then…
today is also the day you’re gonna bring joy back into my world. Today is gonna be the day for me to smile again. Today is gonna be the day for me to hope for the future again. Today is gonna be the day I don’t go to bed crying.

Please, let today be the day.