I'm so sick of hurting. It's gotten to the point theses days where I don't even care any more;. Beat me, hate me, scream at me but I just don't care any more there's not fucking point to caring any more... I just sometimes wish things were easier, and I wish I didn't hurt so much. I'm sick of everyone blaming everything on me and making me feel even fucking worse than I already do. I'm sick of fucking hurting... and now my mother thinks that keeping me in town, oh my bad, in the FUCKING HOUSE all this summer will be punishment for me... ya, punishment that I can bet my fucking life on will end with me in the psych ward of the hospital... I can't fucking take this any more....